When you attempt to set out to do what you wanted to do exactly the way you wanted to do it before, you don't grow. Trust each process. To give you what you want right now the way you picture it right now is ignorance of the future. This last push consists of us growing up. It's going to feel so good once we do, because all the old worries and troubles will be blessings and not what we originally wanted to interpret them as.

We are learning to work through challenges and not blame others for them. We are teaching ourselves that growing is very comforting, and it is.

Nothing bad is happening to us, we are just reacting strangely to this new found freedom. We aren't used to giving ourselves this much room, and it is bringing up some more old thoughts. This is nothing short of a blessing because all the old thoughts become new ones through the process of change.

We must roll with these changes, because we are these changes.