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Remember everything you can about your dreams. Remember how you felt, what you saw, and who you talked to. It's shocking to see how much dreams are just like life. For some of us dreams are a way of dealing with some of the emotional issues we have, or a way of giving us a snap shot of things that will come to us in the future.

Dream journals are a great way of keeping track of your unconscious mind. Every morning after you wake up, pull out a notebook, write down the date and describe your dream as thoroughly as you can. The first time you may only get down a couple sentences but after a while you'll start to see pages of details and feelings.

Dreams teach us how to feel things we've never felt and show us doors to possibility in our reality, It's not so much a philosophy as much as an observation of what the human body can do naturally.


Thought sifting.

If you were, for a moment, to stop and listen to what is going on inside your head, you'll realize there are many layers of conversation going on within yourself. These conversations are giving you information based on your current situation and will help you.

Just never take the thoughts too seriously =). Use only the thoughts that will help you and leave all the others behind.


Whatever situation you're in is your purpose for that moment.

No matter how you feel, being aware of how you feel is in your best interest.

Whatever is bugging you is just a thought, and once you let that thought go, you've changed the world around you.

smooth out those edges that stick out like a soar thumb in your body and your mind. Relax and Feel good, those are your only obligations to yourself. It takes no effort and no time to do it.

Look for what you want in every day things, and let your idea of what you want grow with all the things you find. IF what you want lies in your future, you can fuel that future with thoughts of the present, so you pretty much can't go wrong. Contrary to what we've thought before.

Once we've reached a more obvious point of awareness, we will see how life has always been this way, but our minds were very filled with egoic thoughts that didn't give us much of a break. Now we are aware of what happens on the inside is always good and what happens on the outside are the thoughts we can choose to keep or to let go. Either way, what happens in this moment is the best situation to lead to what you want...always. You pretty much have it already.


Let it build up.

There is the thought, the physical and everything in between. Everything started with a thought and made its way to the physical (which is what you are experiencing now.)

When you have a thought that you like, trust that one day and even today that it will be in your physical presence. Let it be a feeling that your body positively reacts to, and let it be as magnificent as you want it to be. Fuel it with other ideas, and just know that even if you have doubts, they don't mean anything, they won't slow down your happiness.

Everything started with just a thought at one point. You will notice how in small ways it will work its way to your life, and when you truly are ready to accept it, it will be there. How can you be ready faster? Just accept this moment for all that's wonderful about it and be enthusiastic that IT is coming. It might as well already be here.


What you are.

To preface this let me explain the reason behind some of my more emotionally intense blogs...I feel it is important for myself as well as others to dig up things that they consider to be inevitable and completely awful. If I could start by saying things that match that way of thinking, those thoughts will rise to the surface as a thought and not a reality. In your reality you will be thinking those thoughts, but not experiencing them, and as you probably know by now, if you were to be experiencing them, it wouldn't be that bad because your reality is not trying to hurt you. You would just be giving yourself the chance to let go of them by looking at them face to face and saying, "I have no use for you."

So, what are you? What am I? These composed ideas of who we think we are could go on forever since a single thought can turn into a million things in an instant. With that the better question would be, what do I do with all this? With what I have, and who I think I am, what is the next step?

To be able to break things down to a simple level is not the same as breaking something down to nothing and leaving it empty and hollow. That is what form identification is, making the meaning in things hollow by simply referring to a thing just for the sake of referring to the thing. Before you try to do something, think about what it is you want to achieve by doing so and realistically seeing how you will achieve it by doing so.
Before you know it, you will be doing it. Before you are even fully aware of it, your thoughts, fueled by a powerful vision in your mind, will find the space that it needs to do it for you. Life will be living itself through you.

We have been so mesmerized by the past and the objects feelings and thoughts around us that we can't step back to see that we've been creating it all. So breathe in as the ocean pulls back from shore and exhale as the ocean hits the beach and repeat that cycle as space fills your life and paves the way for you through all these things. The path that you really want.



Alright. When we can joke about any subject matter, Everything turns into something good and anything your mind picks up as harmful or negative is simply a figment of the imagination and is more deeply explorable.

The dark side of the imagination is often a place that we stay clear of for fear that we may become entangled in those thoughts. In reality, bringing your mind closer to them is simply understanding what makes you unhappy and why it is happening.

Unhappiness is a good thing, actually. There is nothing wrong with it, and when we are unhappy if all we could say is..."yeah, and so what?" that is what would move us farther away from taking our Ego or the "I am" too seriously.

Just because you are unhappy, it doesn't mean good things aren't happening to you, it just means your thoughts are overtaking the space that we are better off with in our everyday lives. It just means a negative thought has reached too much momentum for you to shake it off as just a thought, either that or you are directly worried about a thought that you had once becoming something real.

Everything you experience is just a thought of your world. So in that sense, nothing is more real than anything else. However, we are so powerful and so in control of what happens to us that sometimes we wonder if we are going in the right direction. The answer is that you are, you can't go in a wrong direction with your life.

IF you feel negative during the day, become aware of what you are doing at that moment. If you realize thoughts are causing negativity, you probably should take a moment to breathe and to put a gap in between your thoughts. If what you are doing is the cause, then you probably should stop doing it unless you think you could accept it or are having to do it.



Being able to understand that someone else hurt you is important if that is the way it seems to you. If you identify a pain as external, you probably shouldn't assume it's coming from inside at first, but instead look at the pain from different angles.

All pain comes from a resistance from inside yourself, true, but there is an appearance of that pain that makes that pain seem real. First there is a wanting inside yourself to see an action of another be hurtful to you. For example, in a relationship when a partner is unfaithful to another partner there is an assumption that the action of the unfaithful partner was to hurt the other. It is likely and very true that we've all experienced pain by someone doing something to us and it is important to show ourselves that that was how it happened then.

Ok so someone hurt you, but what good does it do to continue on with a pain that only incapacitates you? If you are so convinced that continuing to hurt from an event is what will allow you to feel better, then do so. If you feel that you can't release yourself from that pain, there is a resistance that should be dealt with.

The importance of identifying is the idea of going into your past to see what is bothering you now and reconstructing what happened. No matter how you see it just being aware that you don't have to be unhappy about something in your past. Just be aware that you shouldn't be handicapped by it now to do something you very much desire to do.

So with that in mind, lets take a deeper look. If an event that occurred in the past is just your way of looking at that event and there are other ways of seeing how that event actually was, then don't you pretty much create everything? If you create your own perception of life, which is life from your perception, then lets work on creating a perception that we want. If what you desire is conflict and anger, then let it be so, but be aware that you are creating it, not the other. There is no "Other."

On a different note:


This was an interesting thing I ran into the other day. When one realizes that they have created their entire life from the beginning and saw what tragic or undesired events they've gone through, I could imagine there would be some fear of Future similar events.

Here are my words of comfort on this matter. There is no certainty of what WILL happen, and that's a little scary I suppose. I, however find it relieving to know that I can change my life significantly just because the future is open to my decision. There is no repeating cycle of life and so that proves to us that up to this point we've been pretty good to ourselves for what we've wanted to see happen. Even against all the odds which we thought existed we still managed to pull through in the times we thought we needed to.
Now, we are dealing with this new found treasure and that is space. With space we've pushed ourselves away from the continuous normal state of mind and gone beyond ourselves to see what we are capable of. This is scary because in this never-before seen place we may think we will encounter unwanted experiences and because of this we may think we will be in more danger than before.
The only difference between now and before is this:
We have more deliberate command over our lives, and we are aware that we are always safe no matter what. No matter what, even if you die, even if no one seems to love you. Is that what you are going to wake up to tomorrow? Is that what you are going to experience in the next few seconds? Just give your thoughts a break and lose yourself.
Lose yourself in the moment of now and you will find yourself a little bit more.


Leaving behind past problems FOR GOOD!!!!

Ok, so we've seen pain and disease as real in the past, so how do we make it an unreality now?

That's the question I've been trying to answer myself and there is no one answer. There is only the truth that you innately hold closely to yourself. The truth that you know deep inside what is best for you and that life is a friend, not an enemy. You have to choices and that is either to trust or not to trust the appearance around you.

If Everything appears great, you are showing greatness, and trust is very easily attained there or is there because of trust.
If Something appears wrong or terrible in your life, there is no trust there and you have not formed trust in that area of your life.

We as humans assume everyone can hear what we are thinking and saying and doing, and in a way that is true. However, when we only look in other people for things we've already found in ourselves that appear to be negative or painful to us, we are stirring up opportunities for us to work towards something better. We've been doing this for years now, and it's time to realize we are individuals and very unique to ourselves and very important to the other experiences that have bonded with us.
So, all that means is, when we look with an open mind into the minds of others, we are wanting to see the unique side of others that we haven't discovered about ourselves yet.

Once you've seen someone else's perspective and seen it in a positive light, you've freed yourself a little more. We are already free and we are enjoying each moment we move through this process no matter how much we may choose to think otherwise sometimes and I think that we are going to start seeing a lot more wonderful things come to all of us. These things will be very unique and styled to suit whoever you are in that moment for as long as you want.

We are now manifesting something we can grab onto in life and using it as a tool in day to day situations. Other people are becoming aware of this as well and you are beginning to see this. We are just finally DOING what we want and our visions that we've been intending to see are rising to the surface.

We are also teaching ourselves to look at our negative moods and our negative events as blessings. They are just negative, and I think we can handle it. We are at the mercy of nothing because there is no us and them or Us against them. We are just an ever expanding consciousness that is focused on love and our over complications of that love has brought us crashing down time and time again because we've referred to the other in disgust when really we were just referring to our own selves.

Be aware of everything you experience as a thought. That thought was one that you had in the past and you are experiencing it now. So, take the time to see in this moment what it is you want to see in your future and one day you will experience that thought as you are now experiencing your past thoughts as your reality right now. =)

It will come when we are ready. That feeling is here and you can push towards it with any means you want and experience it right now. Just know that there is nothing battling you or breaking you down. The only thing that could be is Maturation and Sincere Help.

I love you all,



People. They are everywhere, and very unavoidable. Even the ones I prefer less. So, how can I make that situation work out peacefully? How can I build a great mutual understanding with everyone?
I think that understanding is already there and that mutual feeling is as well. Perhaps it's my anticipation that the other person will not like a part of me or notice something about me that I notice as faulty. What does that do? That's a very emotional thing to hate yourself or another person.

We can reach out to another person to validate something we don't like about ourselves. It's interesting how accepted this has become. We don't even have to reach out. A lot of times that thought is in our mind before we even come into contact with anyone on a day to day basis. That thought is so old, and so hard to notice that it's amazingly hurtful when it rises to the surface.
The thing that I want to say about it is that it is a good hurt. That hurt that you feel emotionally is a way to release those memories that caused that thinking. From whenever it started.
That you have low-self worth
That you have been abandoned and lessened.
That you Abandon and make people feel worthless.

It's all in our head. and in the past. Lets leave the past where it was and make the future great. If you don't feel that way, there is resistance inside you in this very moment and it's actually very easy to relieve. Your life will change the minute you step away from that resistance. Because once you learn to stop resisting, you are not resisted in any way. Therefore there is no resistance simply because we don't want it. No one does, it's not comfortable or necessary.

"Well What if I was being murdered?" "Can I resist then?" ...if you think you are going to be murdered make yourself safe, whatever it takes. Don't feed into it emotionally because that will bring that situation to you. Just breathe and look for signs of help, and guidance. IN that moment you will have just enough time to do what you want and what you think you need to do. In that moment you are not separate from all that is good.

Stop thinking about what you're worth because you are priceless to anyone you are willing to be open and friendly with. No exaggeration. There are no dick heads, or assholes...that's an ego-generated thought that exists because we have allowed it to exist.
People are the most emotional thing you've ever come into contact with and letting the pain of this ancient knowing pass through you without resistance is what will give you the willingness to shine through to others and they will do the same in their different way. In a way that we can all balance each other out perfectly.

Once you realize this, you will be in a state of happiness. Releasing this one last fear from ourselves beyond all others will free us from unneeded thinking and allow ourselves to focus fully on our vision. With or without "people" in them. =)

Just imagine scenarios of someone hurting you in some way. What feelings are brought up? What realizations about your actions on a day to day basis are you taking to avoid these events? Do you even realize that you've created the idea of the event and so it is there...You are just scaring yourself and some people become so emotionally involved in it that it becomes the norm, and it also becomes that subtle inner negativity we are all trying to release.
We can release it right now, I'm not saying we are suffering, I just think we'd be better off without those worries getting the way of every day tasks that would be much more fun without your own negativity. Just realize the negativity as a thought and everything good as what is real, and you will surely reach a point where negative thoughts are also positive in some other way. We just have to step back a little to let things change.

I now understand that the very reason for having those thoughts is the very reason I'm trying to avoid them. But when I say avoid, I don't mean oppose them. I don't mean integrate them into your world, but to let them pass over you as just a thought. You don't know what is going to happen in the future and you can choose to know that your future will be kickass and it will be. You can even predict events you want to happen in your future. There are no boundaries. Do what you want and fuck the rest.
You don't have to Try to be yourself. If you intend to TRY to be yourself, it wont be as effective as intending to BE yourself. One satisfies the ego, and one satisfies you.
You, whoever you are. You are much more important than your ego.


Enthusiasm and its effects

Warning: this may make you aware.

It's really interesting to see where people's interests are at their peaks during each day. We each have our own favorite activities such as music, business or sex but what goes on during the rest of our day? Isn't it weird that you can notice gaps or lapses of time when you might as well could have been sleeping?

This phenomena which I've observed in my overly ridiculous amount of free time is just intriguing to me. Have you ever tried to be AWAKE throughout the entire day? Aware of each and every little thought that's going through your head? Or do you just kind of go into auto pilot and let your conscious mind run its routine?


Get out of bed, take shower, shave, put on clothes, grab suitcase, quickly finish a paper, run out of the door while almost falling on the threshold, jump into car, drive to work with radio on halfway, get to work, find your parking space, get into your office, try to be friendly to that person you don't like at work, go to a morning meeting.....etc until the end of the day.

Ok, so you have a handful of events that you can recall throughout your day. Cool. Now what? I'm sure you must be wondering at this point where I'm going with this phenomena, and here is precisely where...

We do a lot of things simply for the sake of Doing them...where life becomes this redundant cycle that gets harder and harder to leave. That's the appearance.
The reality of these motions and these activities are actually more significant than we are now aware of. When we just assume we are doing a useless activity and we HAVE to do it, that's about the biggest waste of time you can give yourself.
When you thoroughly enjoy each thought that is brought from an activity you are doing, that is when you are doing your life's work, not someone else's.

Why do we just Do things for the sake of doing them? Life roles..."I'm a BANKER." -role..."I'm a teacher" - Role.
They are all roles and tell nobody anything about what you do or who you appear to be. They are the label at the surface of what you do that can be easily eroded away by some other name someone comes up with and in itself is worthless to you or anyone else.

Surprisingly enough people do pursue roles just for the title. Just for the "experience" of looking in the mirror and saying to their physical self, "I am this and that." And that's good, I applaud you, if you are happy then I am happy. End of story, but never hesitate to drop that role which will not last longer than your own toleration of being a role.

Where does this all come down to? You should love what you do, each and every part of your day. You should love how you feel physically and emotionally while you do it and feel like each day you come away with many new things. That your hobby changes with you and is praised by others just as much as you praise others for their own individual hobbies.

We are creators. That's a big bite to chew for us at this point while we are still understanding the nature of creation, but it will get easier and easier. The thoughts we have on a day to day basis have already been simplified and easily sortable.

Thoughts that rise to the surface, actions that you do or someone else does, and events through the day are reflections of yourself. Each and every part. You can make them shine. You have those very detailed feelings and thoughts under your command. Allow them to relax with you as you relax in the comfort you create for yourself.

Once you have those events under your metaphorical fingers, your enthusiasm will engage a whole new awakening in your life. You will know as it these moments hit you. It's the most wonderful feeling ever.


There I am

I wish there was some way I could reach out. Feel something I don't know about yet. Let my body, mind, and consciousness be overrun by it now. Be defined by it, and know nothing else. Be reshaped by it and never come back. Be it, and save it as a place I can wander when I'm cold. A place to wander when I'm shattered. A place to run when my face has melted into my hands.

I want to stand in heaven and look back at myself and see my suffering as perfect. See it as a good feeling. Feel the leeches infest my skin, feel the roaches crawl up my legs and let them dig. Let them dig.

Let the viewers of this blog see the writer as insane but looking for something. Looking for something they've lost too. As if something can be disconnected from us. As if something can infest our body and take it over without our wanting of it. With this expectation that leaves us with nothing to drink but the hard dry air.

Cracked throat, and cold skin here I'm crawling there to look back at where I've been.
Helping myself, Lose myself, love myself, Whatever I am
To live and breathe and climb out of this fuckin whole once again.

Change now, Change now Goddamnit.
I don't even listen. I can't see, or feel. What does it even mean to me?
What am I stirring up? What have I put my hands into?
It must be safe, I've just never been.

I must allow myself to put myself somewhere new.
That's all I am and all I can be... Who I am.... Whoever that is.